Got my first beta back yesterday afternoon. 8.5. I mean, really 8.5? Ugh…lowest beta I’ve ever seen. I am trying to tell myself that since I got a negative the day before, that 8.5 isn’t so bad, that numbers have to start somewhere. That 20 women on Betabase got a beta of 6-10 on 11DPO and saw a heartbeat. But its very hard not to be discouraged. I took another test today and the line looks about the same as yesterday…I think. But I find myself staring and staring and sometimes it looks lighter and sometimes it looks darker and I realize I’m driving myself crazy again. So annoying. Its not like I forgot how long these days were, between betas, between tests, I didn’t, but since its been awhile, I kind of blocked it out. Now I feel like I’m right back in it, though I will say, since I do have my 2 beautiful boys, the intensity is not ratcheted up nearly as high, and I’m thankful for that. They keep me busy enough that I can forget for a time.
If this doesn’t work out (and I’m not feeling very positive right now), at least I know a solution that worked for me before and resulted in the birth of my second son. All I have to do is call Dr. Bruce Lessey in Greenville, SC and he will prescribe this for me again and hopefully I won’t have to go through this again…and again…and again.