And here we go…..

I got a positive test this morning.  I think I’m about 10 days past ovulation.  I’m honestly in shock.  I don’t know why, I had a lot of symptoms, but I just didn’t think it would happen the first time (even though it always does.)

If you want to see my BFP, click here.  Its actually fairly dark considering I had a BFN yesterday.

Right now I’m trying not to panic and also trying not to get my hopes up.  I’ve never had my “first” pregnancy work out, I’ve always lost it.   I know my past doesn’t predict my future, but its hard not to think about it.

I’ve been debating getting my HCG levels done.  Part of me wants to just wait it out and see what happens, but the more obsessive part of me probably won’t let that happen.  I’ll probably call the OB shortly and see if I can go in.

So I’m right back on the roller coaster with all of you, my dear readers.  If you have some hope to spare I would appreciate it.  I really hope that this works out – both for me and so that you all have some hope too.  I will keep you all updated on what happens.



6 thoughts on “And here we go…..

  1. Ksenia says:

    Hey. I experienced 2 loses in 2.5 months – both chemical pregnancies. Both times I was under extreme stress and experienced eating problems, but doctors told me that it cannot cause a miscarriage. I am still in shock, but reading your blog makes me feel a lot better. Now it makes me very happy to hear that you are pregnant again. I really hope you will keep this one and it will turn into a beautiful baby. Because if it works for you, it means that one day it will work for me too. I have fingers crosses for you and keep you in my thoughts.

    • rowanthefrog says:


      I’m so sorry to hear about your losses. Your doctors are right, stress and eating issues will not cause a chemical pregnancy…it was not YOUR fault. Even though I have had 4 losses, I have two healthy sons…so do not despair, you will hold your baby one day, I’m sure of it. Thank you for your well wishes and please keep me posted on your progress.


  2. J.h.s. says:

    Hi Rowan. I’m so happy to have found your blog. In 2007 I had my first girl, we got pregnant on first try. In Feb 2008 I discovered I was pregnant (DD was only 7 months) and I had not had a period since I conceived her. I lost that one at 8 wks which was ok because we and my body was not ready. March 2009 we had our second daughter also on first try. However now 38, we tried in March 2012 and conceived on first try. However at week 8 sac was showing 8 weeks but fetus at 5 W. the there was no heartbeat. I had to take cytotec to compete the mc. I’ve been doing acupuncture, eating right etc since the mc and just tried again in Sept. it came up positive and my levels in week four were rising. On Tuesday I started spotting and just knew it was wrong. Ultrasound showed no sac and DR said that was not good since my levels should be high enough to show sac asof yesterday my level went down to 319. So mc is imminent. I’m now told to go to a RE. Did you ever find the reason for your frequent chemical mc? I’m afraid to try again next month, or if I should wait to go thru a work up with the RE.
    Thoughts? And thanks for your blog. This is saving my sanity.

    • rowanthefrog says:


      I’m so sorry to hear what you have been going through. It is so tough. I did a LOT of testing but never found anything officially wrong with me. The only thing that kept coming up was that I had very thin uterine lining. Here is where you can find what successfully brought me my second child. Have you had the recurrent pregnancy loss panel run? Your OB can run that easily and it should be covered by insurance. It would be a good starting point for you. I would probably wait at least one cycle before trying again, just to give your body a chance to build itself up again. Starting the process with an RE might not be a bad idea. They will want to run a lot of tests and it will take a month or two before they will let you start trying, so if you start that now, then by the time your body is ready, hopefully you will have your test results back so you know what is happening.

      Please keep us posted,


  3. Nicole says:

    I am so grateful to have found your blog, it has given me hope again. We have been ttc for 2 1/2 years and had three chemical preg the first year. We sought treatment from a specialist and tested positive but have to go back on Monday to verify if betas a doubling as they should. I am so anxious, expecting the worst again. Thanks for giving me hope!

    • rowanthefrog says:

      Hi Nikki,

      Thanks for commenting and I’m sorry to hear what you have gone through. I’ll offer up a cautiously optimistic congrats on your recent BFP. Oh I know the anxiety of waiting for betas, such a nervewracking time. I truly hope you get great news and they more than double for you. Please keep us posted on your progress.


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